wordless wednesday {bring the rain!}

we're in trouble

We're in trouble.

You can see it by the pose.

The pose that was not contrived, the pose that came to her naturally. 

Sassy.

The first word that comes to your mind, don't worry, it comes to my mind, too, and far too often. 

There are times where she may say something that kills me to my core. She is so extroverted that she is thinking she's being funny and me the "in between", the  introextrovert (is there such a thing?) is dying inside when it comes across as "snotty", but not intended on her part. 

I can talk to anyone, make great conversation, but she's the kind that lights up the room.

She's also the kind that presses my buttons and I'm often left with, "how could I have said this better?", "how could I have taught her differently?", "how can I be a better example?". 

She's got sass and I can't say that I don't love this picture.

She has a zest for life and she's got big feelings. I mean, big, BIG, feelings.

I have to be careful. I need to reign her in sometimes. 

She has a heart of gold toward everyone in public, but with her siblings and family she can sling it with the best of them. She learned from school in a Soul Shoppe class about "I messages". 

Though I might be "retired" from my school counselor position, once a school counselor, always a school counselor. I am so very, very, proud that with her big feelings, comes big listening. She loves Soul Shoppe at school. I taught "I messages" to all my students, even my teachers that had difficulty with some of their own peers. 

I feel...

when you..

and I would like it if...

It can feel boxed, but it's sometimes what we need to fully express ourselves in a meaningful and to the point way. 

She came home and told me all about the "I message", and I couldn't have been more proud.

I need to use this with her for myself. 

She's challenging, but I love every ounce of her.

And, we're only in trouble if we don't communicate with her. 

She's the one that God gave us to keep us on our toes.

She's amazing.

Bring it.

sassy, spunky, sparkly, spirited {happy 7th birthday, dear anna}

Sassy, spunky, sparkly, spirited,

are just a few words that come to mind when I think of Anna.

She's been this way since the day that she was born. I've always been intrigued by people that just have "it"-whatever "it" is. You know, the people that walk into a situation full of confidence and presence. Not the arrogant kind, not the "I'm better than you kind", no, the kind that you can't quite put your finger on. The kind that exude happiness, the kind that light up a room, the kind that can bring anyone and everyone to tears with their incredible sense of humor. The kind that everyone knows wherever they go, the kind that really, truly, light up the world.

This is definitely not how I would describe myself and while I do love being me,

I love being me, 

loving her.

Anna.

She's 7 going on 17. Look out world, and pray for me and Erik!

 That's the sass.

She's not afraid to be who she is, she dances like no one's watching, but loves that everyone does. That's the spunk.

Whether it's jewelry, glitter in her artwork, or a pair of new shoes, she loves anything that glistens. That's the sparkly.

The love she has for people, animals, God, her "move mountains" attitude, it's strong and unique to her.

That's the spirited.

Sometimes, she's stubborn. 

Enough said.

All of these things and more, make up the Anna Elizabeth that we brought into this world by the grace of God on April 28, 2008.

My sweet Anna, on the occasion of your seventh birthday, these are the thoughts I want to hold onto:

Me: What is your favorite food?

Anna: Pizza

Me: What is your favorite dessert?

Anna: Donuts

Me: What is your idea of the perfect day?

Anna: My birthday, spending the day with my family

Me: What is your favorite thing to do?

Anna: Drawing

Me: What is your favorite animal?

Anna: A cheetah.

Me: What do you think about Murray?

Anna: He's the funnest puppy I've ever known. (Coincidentally, Anna and Murray share a birthday!)

Me: What is your favorite subject at school?

Anna: Writers Workshop.

Me: What would you like for your birthday?

Anna: My ears pierced.

Me: What is your favorite song?

Anna: Blank Space by Taylor Swift. (Sassy, Spunky, Sparkly, Spirited...yep, I mentioned those already!)

Me: What is your favorite movie?

Anna: Home.

Me: What do you think you might like to be when you grow up?

Anna: An Olympic Swimmer.

May you always be you and be proud.

May you never lose your "S's", they make you shine!

The best is yet to come.

Daddy, Kieran, Tatum, Liam and I love you with all our hearts. And Murray, too!

Happy 7th Birthday!

Love,

Mommy

Happy Easter, I mean it! {easter 2015}

"Come out of your tomb, be like Jesus, be a BLESSING to others...say Happy Easter and mean it!"

This is the message that we heard at Easter Sunday Mass.

 I hope that these four will walk with God all the days of their life.

 They teach me daily in ways I never imagined. They are truly loving and compassionate beyond their years.

When life gets difficult, it would be easy to stay inside, to stay behind the stone. Or, we can roll it away, face the difficult and persevere.

Be a blessing to others my little ones, just as you are to me.

I love you so very, very much.

Happy Easter, I mean it!

forgotten...

I haven't posted since December...

I've not picked up my camera since January.

Not since this...

I have forgotten just how much I've missed.

Not to say I haven't been in the moment, not to say that I can't steal these moments with my iphone, not to say that I must be behind a shutter every minute of every day.

There's certainly a time and a place.

Sometimes, taking no pictures at all is a gift!

That said,

I have a deep love for capturing life through my lens.

Not necessarily for anyone else, but for me and my family.

I need to print my photographs once and for all! What good are they stored captive on my computer? They are much better off gracing the walls of my home. I've talked about it, I've said it before and I haven't followed through.

It's time.

Capturing LIFE.

I miss it.

I crave it.

I had forgotten just how much.

the magic of christmas

The magic of Christmas-it's my favorite time of year. I start listening to Christmas carols the day after Thanksgiving and continue listening to only carols the whole season. I don't get tired of them-the fun ones, the silly ones, the ones that give you chills. My favorite carol? I can't say that I have just one because I love so many, but I can say that I love any Christmas song by John Denver. Hokey, maybe, but I don't care. I still love a good John Denver tune.

 I grew up surrounded with folk music from my parents. Either listening to folk artists or listening to my parents playing the guitar, the piano or singing. Growing up, they were the head of the choir at church. They were the ones that were hired for weddings and funerals, they even sang at my wedding. Erik calls my mom the "church lady" ala Saturday Night Live. I have to admit, I get a good laugh from that, but I promise she's a lot better and I am thankful every day that my parents instilled in me a love for music. My only regret is that I don't play an instrument!  If you haven't heard any Christmas songs by John Denver, go listen.  Afterall, December 25 may have come and gone, but it is still the Christmas season! 

Our Christmas season is most complete for me when we travel to visit Erik's family and see the lights at CALM. This picture doesn't do it justice, it's only a small fraction of what you see and it's absolutely gorgeous!

"The light that shines for all to see...

the peace of Christmas day." -The Peace Carol

Anna, of course, was the first one up Christmas morning! She is usually one of, if not the last to sleep in on a regular morning, but Christmas? Where's the party?

"Find your heart...

open up both your eyes." -It's in Every One of us

Sometimes the sisters bicker, and other times be still my heart.

"See how much there is to give, see how strongly you believe...

see how much you may receive." -Aspenglow

Christmas would not be complete without tears (of joy, of course) from my mom.

"The season is upon us now, a time for gifts and giving...

and as the year draws to its close, I think about my living." -A Baby Just Like You

I decided this year we'd use the remote shutter to document that we were here without anyone having to have a camera in their hand. I need a lot more practice, but it's a start! It's the only one that has the six of us and we never did take a whole family photo other than our card-that's life.

"I don't know if you believe in Christmas, or if you have presents underneath the Christmas tree...

but if you believe in love, that will be more than enough, for you to come and celebrate with me."

We actually had a Christmas Eve Eve with my parents before they headed to my sister and brother-in-law's house this year. We have "big Christmas" every other year.

"Christmas is a time to come together, a time to put all differences aside...

and I reach out my hand to the family of man, to share the joy I feel at Christmas time." 

I just happened to steal this moment from my dad and Tatum. According to my mom, she knows Tatum loves her, but she'll drop her in seconds flat as soon as she sees her Nonno.  They have a really special bond.

"For I have held the precious gift that love brings, even though I've never saw a Christmas star...

 But I know there is a light, I have felt it burn inside and I can see it shining from afar."

We had a fairly quiet and calm Christmas morning and celebrated with Erik's parents. Liam loved seeing Papa in his space age ski goggles.

"For the truth that binds us all together, I would like to say a simple prayer...

that at this special time, you will have true peace of mind and love to last throughout the coming year." -A Christmas Wish

And of course, what would Christmas (or any day for that matter) be, without Liam getting into something he wasn't supposed to. I think he ate everyone's chocolate from Santa. #liamstrikesagain

"Perhaps love is like a window, perhaps an open door...

 it invites you to come closer, it wants to show you more". -Perhaps Love

Liam's big gift from Santa was his John Deere tractor, which everyone but Kieran and Erik have ridden so far. I may or may not have ridden it in the garage yesterday.

"It's tall in the saddle we spend Christmas Day, driving the cattle over snow covered plains...

So many gifts have been opened today...

ours is the sky,

 and the wide open range."

Okay, so no wide open range or snow, especially not inside the house, but riding an electric tractor was as close as I could come to riding a horse. ;)

When I was just a wee little boy, full of health and joy, 

One Christmas morning I received The Marvelous Little Toy.

A wonder to behold it was with many colors bright...

And the moment I laid eyes on it, it became my heart's delight." The Marvelous Little Toy 

(lyrics by Tom Paxton)

"That Peace on Earth fills up your time, that brotherhood surrounds you...

That you may know the warmth of love and wrap it all around you." -A Baby Just Like You

Our priest at our church spoke to all of us at family mass on Christmas Eve, he even wore a Christmas bow on his head for part of the mass. His message simple, but so powerful. While presents we give to others at Christmas can signify the gifts that were brought to Jesus by the Wise men, the true presents, the gift, the magic of Christmas is us. It is YOU! Jesus lives in us, in our hearts. We share this love and we give this gift to others. Father gave each child a Christmas bow to take home and instructed them to put the ribbons on their heads Christmas Day.

It's my absolute favorite picture...

"Music makes pictures and often tells stories, all of it magic and all of it true...

and all of the pictures and all of the stories, all of the magic, the music is you." -The Music is You

...it's the magic of Christmas.

"Live, Jesus, in our hearts! Forever"-Lasallian Prayer

Merry Christmas Eve

Glory to God 

in the highest,

& on Earth, 

PEACE, 

good will

toward men.

Luke 2: 14

Merry Christmas Eve!

With Love,

Erik, Kristin, Kieran, Anna, Tatum, & Liam